Coffee table guest chat with Dominic Murray – Part 2.


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What do I mean by “this is Coffee table guest chat?” – I mean that I sat down and actually chatted with the guest rather than just interview them. This is a little longer than a normal blog, but I hope you bear with it and enjoy :)


Someone recently suggested that as an openly gay writer I have a responsibility to the LGBTTQI community at large. I was a little surprised by this, and the more I thought about it, a little annoyed. The fact I write is not connected with my sexual orientation. I was writing long before I realised I was gay. Neither do I wish to be confined to writing about just one subject for the rest of my writing life. In fact, my last published story was about a straight guy.

What I write is fiction – character driven mostly. In order to be able to write what I do, I have to be able to engage with those characters. If you can’t “connect” with the character you can’t write about them. Not all the characters that spawn from my fervent imagination are actually gay. The majority of them may well be straight…

I don’t know.

I mean, I’ve never sat down and taken a census of them.

Should my sexual orientation drive what I write? Looking at the subject of my last guest blog I think we all know the answer to that one (NO!). So why does being gay automatically mean I have to become a spokesperson for a community? Maybe the truth is, we ask people to stand up and speak for us to challenge the very perceptions of who we are.

I liked to once again welcome my friend, fellow writer and blogger, Dominic Murray to gab with me for a while about this;

James Snaith (JS): Welcome back! Let’s dive right into the deep end on this: Do you think as an author yourself – and an openly gay man – you have a responsibility to write fiction that better represents us?

Dominic Murray (DM): That’s a very good question. I don’t feel that I have a responsibility to write good gay fiction. But I often naturally find myself writing about gay characters who have real relationships. I don’t write for other people – I write for me. I think I have a responsibility, as an author, to write good fiction.

JS: I agree with you on that score. I find it…insulting when someone suggests that I have a wider responsibility. It’s not why I write, but I find myself writing about gay characters – because, well, I can relate to them.

DM: And why shouldn’t we write about gay people? I have written about straight characters – male and female – but it’s natural to me that I end up with a gay protagonist.

JS: I’ve written both myself. A character that bugs me a lot (Jack) is a straight boy. It was as much a surprise to me as anyone when he ended up in bed with a woman. Romance is universal – but maybe it doesn’t have to be full of tropes. Such as the “fit man, with a well toned body.”

DM: I think it’s important to find new and fresh things to do with stories. I think it’s important that people disabuse themselves of the image that you – man or woman – have to look a certain way. I think it’s harder in gay erotica to move away from men with fit bodies – and that a man’s body can be represented in different ways – but in gay fiction? There should be more ‘diverse’ body types.

JS: I agree. How did you feel about the primary character in “Nothing Perfect” – the fact that he wasn’t a: in perfect shape and b: was disabled?

DM: I have to say that it was a breath of fresh air! Again, it was the sense of realness – of honesty – about it, and the fact he was well-written and presented with no apology made it all the better.

JS: One of the characters you created for your “Gay-To-Zed” anthology (the “Michael and Xuan” story) was an older gay man who was dealing with the loss of his partner from a heart attack. It’s actually unusual for a story to feature an older gay man as its protagonist. It was a standout story in the book. The character wasn’t looking to replace his lost love, but was still trying to deal with what had happened. I really loved that story. Really loved the way you wrote Michael. It felt very real to me.

DM: I think I wanted to play a little on the idea of the older, predatory, gay man and his young lover – a very definite and damaging gay stereotype – with Michael.

JS: That too comes across very strongly in the story. It’s one of the reasons I found it fascinating. That his grief would lead him to obsession, to chase something he maybe can’t have.

DM: There is also a wider story there that was perhaps too ambitious to be presented as a short – probably why there is not a satisfactory ending.

JS: Certainly several stories in that book could do with an expansion (hint hint).

DM: When you compare him with “Keelan” – the older, predatory ‘bear’ (in one of the other stories) – then you get a definite sense of variety.

JS: The Keelan story very much fits the Alpha/Omega dynamic. Although there was something else about it…

DM: It does, but that isn’t all that he is – something which I tried to bring out in the narrative.

JS: I have to say, it was a very “hot” story. Do you find it hard to write sex scenes between two men?

DM: Oddly, as I’ve got older I have found it more difficult to write explicit sexual scenes. I’ve purposely avoided writing them in the last couple of stories I’ve produced. In the current story – “Here Comes The Rain Again” – any scenes tend to end at the bedroom door (with one exception).

JS: Would you say that’s because it’s harder to write something that is based on actual personal experience, and there is a worry about sharing something that could be interpreted is being about you personally?

DM: *snort* After “Gay-to-Zed” I think I’m a bit past that. Besides, if I wrote about my own historic sex life people would die of boredom! But, yes, I think when you read sex – because it’s such an intimate part of life – the natural instinct is to wonder if the author is writing from personal experience.

JS: Do you think this is why male authors who write gay fiction tend to write about broader topics, and not just a “general m/m romance erotic” story?

DM: Perhaps they know that being gay is not simply about who’s swinging off your cock. That you can have a three dimensional existence that is not only about what’s gay or not.

JS: For instance, you mentioned Perry Moore’s debut novel “Hero” the other day.

DM: I did – and I like his presentation where the gay aspect of the protagonist’s character and burgeoning relationship is not the be-all and end-all of the story. Take that away and he still remains a well-rounded character and the story remains something that I would read.

JS: In your current story, “Here Comes the Rain Again…” you’ve created a character called Ryan who’s on the cusp of coming out – although he’s hardly been hiding away in a closet given his, um, level of “experience.”

DM: I don’t think that Ryan self-identifies as gay. That doesn’t mean he hasn’t messed around with other guys. I’m not sure if that makes him extremely, achingly modern with his view on sexuality (although I suspect not) or just a bit of a prick – or somewhere in the middle!

JS: Certainly in one of your after-sex scenes it’s clear that Ryan has been the passive partner in bed (the bottom) – something he had no problem with and certainly no discomfort from. I know you don’t like using tropes (such as first time bottoming experiences are always “amazing and fantastic”), which is where I got the inference that he was a lot more experienced than he was letting on.

DM: That’s true. There’s also an element of just because he’s had experience in being a bottom doesn’t mean that the ‘top’ had to have been a man. But, yes, Ryan definitely has a history, and Matt isn’t his first time at the rodeo, so to speak!

JS: A girlfriend with a strap on? Well, it does happen! I don’t speak from personal experience of course. Mind you I used to know a guy who’s wife liked to do that to him, and he enjoyed that as well (why do people always feel comfortable telling me things like this)… But you’re not using it as a way of one character dominating the other.

DM: Oh definitely not!

JS: Ryan is very most certainly calling the shots in your story.

DM: At the present time, yes. At the beginning of relationships I think its natural to be a little … elastic with things you tolerate. And there’s a certain amount of obsession coming from the other main character – Matt.

JS: That’s one of the main problems with the way romance is always portrayed in fiction. The roles are very static from page one. That’s what makes it feel so unreal – so contrived. The reality is that relationships can be very fluid – things change, dynamics take time to build. They don’t happen straight away.

DM: There may be balances that shift in a relationship, but that doesn’t mean that they can’t be true equal partnerships.

JS: If romance should be about anything, it should be about a partnership.

DM: One could be cynical and say that in this age of self-obsession and instant gratification, the concept of a true partnership is the fantasy!

JS: Is that why you write it? Is that why we’ve both gravitated to it?

DM: Perhaps it is, after all. But then I’m rather lucky in that respect – as you are.

JS: Very true. We don’t see enough of it in the world – get to read about it, get to see it on TV. It tends to be all about the instant gratification. Not what happens next. The prince and princess get married and live happily every after… End of story. But I think what happens next, is the actual story.

DM: A marriage is not a wedding. A relationship is not just about getting laid.

JS: It’s not just about two people getting off. Romance is something far more subtle, more lasting, harder to define at times. It’s interesting that within the whole story we’ve been writing together the only (so far) detailed sex-scene is one without gratification. The scenes not seen, but spoken of, are far more gratifying.

DM: Because I don’t think the very act of sex is important (in this instance). I think – with what I know about your story and your characters – that there is a level of importance to it, but in a different way.

JS: I prefer to write about intimacy, rather than the “get down and lets fuck” sex scene. Intimacy is far more potent I think, far more interesting.

DM: Certainly that’s the way I see it. Even within “Gay-to-Zed” there’s often a long lead up in a lot of the stories before you get to the fucking – and in some of them there’s not even any fucking of any kind. Yet that doesn’t detract (I hope) from the latent eroticism.

JS: Depicted eroticism is far different from depicted sex – and sex in general. I think sex, especially depicted sex within books, robs it of intimacy. When you make it all about the sex, you lose something between the characters. Relationships are never just about sex. And that brings me back what we talked about the other day, and why I think in general that a lot of romance fiction is no better than porn at the moment. It’s not about the intimacy between two people; it’s just about getting them to have sex.

DM: And if all you’re doing is manoeuvring people into doing that, haven’t you lost something as a writer?

JS: Exactly. I don’t want to read a book where Man A meets Man B – they flirt, have sex, drama, have sex, drama, sex again, break up and then realise they love each other get back together. Oh, and then have sex again.

DM: Especially when it’s followed by another in the same series of Man C meets Man D…

JS: Do you think this is one of the reasons you keep coming back to write romance fiction? Are you attempting to write the genre as it should be (when it comes to m/m fiction)?

DM: I can’t say that I had some kind of epiphany and made a conscious decision to right some terrible wrong. I wouldn’t peg myself as a romance writer above any other genre – but at the same time life is about relationships with other people, and the way in which that dynamic manifests itself is inherently fascinating to me. It would be nice to get away from such labels as “gay author” and “gay fiction”. I aim to write strong fiction that just happens to be about men!

JS: What plans do you have for future projects, and what themes would you like to tackle next?

DM: I have a few ideas rattling around in here – some of them have been there for a while. There’s the space opera, some supernatural fantasy, a 1980s crime mystery series (to be co-written with a friend) … And then there are the potential ‘spin offs’ from “Gay-to-Zed” – the “Michael and Xuan” story you mentioned earlier for starters. I’m not sure that I sit down and think to myself “Today I’m going to write about this”, it’s just not the way that I work. I write about people and I write about conflict. I’d hate to be so reductive that all my characters simply exist to represent a particular archetype or theme.

JS: I know what you mean, I write what I write – without thinking that it has to be about a particular subject or theme. I hate being bound that way. Well, we’re short on time again so I’m going to have to stop things here.

Thank you for coming back, and again for the chat. And again, thank you for being my first victim, umm, guest blogger!

Please go show Dominic Murray some WordPress love, and please have a look at Part One of this chat. I hope you all enjoyed this insight into a fellow blogger and myself as well.

More soon :)

Coffee table guest chat with Dominic Murray – Part 1.


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What do I mean by “this is Coffee table guest chat?” – I mean that I sat down and actually chatted with the guest rather than just interview them. This is a little longer than a normal blog, but I hope you bear with it and enjoy :)


To quote a source: “The word trope has also come to be used for describing commonly recurring literary and rhetorical devices, motifs or clichés in creative works.”

For me personally, that one sentence sums up the whole issue of tropes in fiction in general, and romance fiction (male-on-male) specifically.

I read a great deal. I love a swathe of genres when it comes to books, from historic adventures, science fiction and fantasy, contemporary urban, and romance fiction – currently I’m working my way through “The Life of Pi.”

Yeah, I know a lot of men would baulk at admitting they go anywhere near romance fiction (or chick-flicks either). But it is a field I write in, and I guess one way to find out something about the market it to actually read what’s currently available.

To be honest when it comes to fiction with gay characters, the shelves tend to be a little bare (or completely non-existent) in book stores. Thanks to online shops, and the recent proliferation of online publishing and eBooks, it’s far easier to find fiction that’s a lot more inclusive – and fiction that (supposedly) understands what it’s like to be a gay man today.

Romance fiction is where the bulk of these books exist; Male/Male romance has become the new hot genre to write in, and perhaps it’s not so surprising that most of the authors writing Male/Male romance and erotic fiction are women. Women, like men, have fantasies too – and many heterosexual women are just as, umm, “intrigued” by guy-on-guy action as heterosexual men are by girl-on-girl action. In a way, most of these books, whilst about gay men, are not targeted at gay men to read – but rather straight women to read.

Many of these authors have migrated over from writing Male/Female romance and erotica. Whilst the primary characters of these books are men and mostly out gay men at that, there is this trend that exists in most of them… A trend that follows the pattern of hero “rescuing” a weak younger man.

I’ve invited fellow blogger and (M/M) writer, Dominic Murray to chat about this;

James Snaith (JS): Afternoon Dom, I know you’ve read a few of these books yourself. What’s your general impression of them?

Dominic Murray (DM): If I’m going to put a line in the sand then that line is going to say that they…fail in some way. That is, they are not written as ‘gay romance’ or ‘gay fiction’ in the true sense of the terms: they are not primarily written by gay authors for a gay audience, (although there are gay authors and gay readers!). They are written by and for straight women.

JS: Definitely – it’s all so very trope-ish: The big strong Alpha Male (who’s also a fantastic top) and the weaker, smaller (younger sometimes) Omega Male (who loves to bottom) and needs taking care of. In some of these books, you could swap the Omega Male for a woman, and the story would still work.

DM: I think that’s definitely what some of the authors do: take the female perspective of love and sex, and put a man’s head (and cock) on it. Hence, you get the feminised ‘bottom’ who needs to be ‘fixed’ by a Big Strong Man. I understand that we’re dealing in ‘fantasy’ – and god knows that m/f romance/erotica has enough wrong with it – but at some stage, you have to reflect real life, don’t you? I don’t think it’s possible to take a homosexual relationship and apply the same heteronormative associations.

JS: You and I recently read an interview with M/M romance author A.B. Gayle where she discussed why she writes what she writes, and her reasons for staying away from certain types of male characters.

DM: The well-rounded ones? ;)

JS: That’s the one (link to the interview in question). It’s quite clear early on that one of the reasons she’s taken to writing M/M fiction is purely for the fantasy side of it.

DM: to quote “The easy answer is that if one man is good… then two men must be better. Make them gay (not suggesting that Thor or Wolverine are that way inclined :) ) and story ideas just jump out of the page.” I think it’s important to realise that “slash fiction” came out of women writing gay-themed fan fiction based on characters that already existed (I think one of the earliest pairings was Spock and Kirk). I think that’s the difference between a ‘gay fantasy’ and ‘gay fiction’ though – and part of a wider issue: how ‘real’ should ‘fantasy’ be portrayed?

JS: I think you’ve hit the nail on the head. A lot of gay fiction is little more than fantasy/erotica. You and I have discussed before how sex scenes – hell, even simple scenes like kissing – tend to be written as little more than porn. They start kissing, clothes magically vanish, and then they’re suddenly at it and able to get into some interestingly difficult positions, lol. The fact that the primary characters are two men isn’t relevant to the whole mix. The problem is, it’s still considered gay fiction, and lots of younger gay men read this stuff. Personally I find books like “Boy Meets Boy” and “The Geography Club” better. They are in essence romance novels – but it’s a small part of the story.

DM: Is there also an element of gay culture being appropriated by women to satiate themselves? (I’m not saying that straight men haven’t done this to women for centuries, up to and including faux-lesbian porn.)

JS: Yes, I think some authors have appropriated this part of gay culture to sate themselves. But what annoys me – worries me even – is that many of them think they are serving the gay community with what they write, that this type of story is helpful to young gay men.

DM: I think some authors – and some women – deal with this better than others, but there’s certainly an element of naivety about it. I’ve read a lot of bad sex scenes in my time (both literary porn and, ahem, sleaze). You can always tell the authors who have had sex and those who are just detailing their wank fantasy: “It was huge and he put it in me and it hurt. But then I loved it and he loved it and he came after hours, and I came and he came again and then we fell asleep with him inside me. I love him and he loves me.”

JS: Certainly, when I was a teenager that wasn’t far off how I thought sex between two men happened. Then I had sex with a man and found out the reality. But sex between two men or two women or a man and woman – it’s not all that different as it’s cracked up to be.

DM: Although a woman can write about sucking a cock from her own experience, can she write about having a cock sucked?

JS: Some feel they can. And some do take the time to ask men about the experience.

DM: That’s true – and some of them even watch gay porn to insure a certain amount of positional veracity.

JS: But porn is a far cry from actual sex.

DM: And it doesn’t deal with inner monologues – or repercussions. Unless that repercussion is your straight roommate coming home and joining in…

JS: I have had to tell a guy to not use his teeth. It’s not instinctive as some authors make it out to be, and some guys do enjoy sporting teeth marks on that part of their body… The truth is, sex isn’t instinctive, it does require a certain amount of “yes, no, left a bit – bit more… yes, that’s the spot”

DM: Which leads back to the veracity expected from fantasy.

JS: Exactly, at most the inner monologue tends to be “am I really doing this?” or “did I wash enough down there?” or “I hope the garlic I had for lunch doesn’t repeat on me.” I’ve never had a straight roommate walk in – or be curious about joining in either, lol

DM: Neither have I – but isn’t that a porn thing?

JS: Yes, lol.

DM: Slightly digressing, however ;)

JS: Not too much, lol. I think that’s the point about a lot of these stories. They are just porn.

DM: Indeed.

JS: Porn with a little plot, but porn none the less.

DM: I like to read a well-written character. If I’m honest, I don’t necessarily care if the author is a man or a woman. Good writing always shows. The ability to get into a character’s head – into all the little dark spaces – is what wins me over. And I think that in a lot of instances (not all – there are some great female m/m authors) this is what makes them fall down. Gay men are not all uber-straight-men-who-like-cock or women-with-penises. If all you are able to present are these two polar opposites then I feel that you are failing the community you’re writing about.

JS: Exactly, some authors do get it right. We don’t all fit into the “Alpha Male” “Omega Male” roles either.

DM: Do men like that exist? Of course. But the line between the two of them is much wider – and full of much more interesting characters, to my mind. One needn’t be “only” a top or “just” a bottom.

JS: In fact the vast majority of gay men don’t engage in penetrative sex. Do you think the fact the characters are written this way is more about “dominance” in the relationship?

DM: I think so. But it’s a dominance that isn’t based on biological gender.

JS: It’s a fantasy dominance.

DM: Or rather a difference in that gender. It’s a form of safe domination.

JS: It’s the whole “Knight in Shining Armour” thing isn’t it?

DM: The woman can partake in the that domination whilst not being exactly a part of it. Which might be a bit of a strong statement ;)

JS: It is a strong statement, yes. But I think that is part of it – and part of why fiction like this is still being written. Maybe it makes some women feel safe to think that dynamic is the same between men as well?

DM: Why would they think otherwise? How would they think otherwise?

JS: Exactly – romance has always been about the dominant man rescuing the woman. It’s been translated over – and it doesn’t really work with M/M romance.

DM: I agree in that it has been translated that way – but I don’t think it fits. As I said at the beginning – you can’t take a woman, add a cock and end up with a gay man.

JS: No, because gay men are not women with cocks.

DM: Would I love a fabulously wealthy older man to whisk me away from all my troubles? If I wasn’t married, then yes, probably. Do I want to read about it over and over? Meh, not so much. There’s nothing wrong with the fantasy of it. However, when it’s the only fantasy presented then it can be damaging.

JS: It’s a trope – and a trap that some writers have fallen into.

DM: Do I want to read about how two men have a relationship of equals, not dissolving into fits of drama and hanky-flapping at the least provocation, or being emotionally stunted? Quite possibly!

JS: All stories have drama, but does it have to come from within the relationship?

DM: If it does then you’re having the wrong kind of relationship with the wrong sort of person. There’s a TV series in America (I can’t remember the title) about gay men in San Francisco, that’s loved by women and slammed by most of the gay community as being unrepresentative.

JS: “Looking.”

DM: That’s the one! thanks. Sex And The City was hardly representational either. However – one is about an ill-understood ‘minority.’ People didn’t suddenly think that all women (in New York or otherwise) behave like Carrie and Co. But when you have an ill-understood minority being badly represented then you have a problem. And I feel it’s the same with this element of gay fiction.

JS: Have you ever read a story where the couple were not only gay, but were already together and had been for years – and the drama wasn’t about them, but just involved them?

DM: Ha – no I don’t think that I have.

JS: I think we’re going to have to wrap this part of the discussion up for today. Is there anything else you’d like to add before we stop for cake?

DM: I think it’s important to stress that we’re generalising here about straight women writers of m/m fiction. There are amazing ones, and there are awful gay male authors of m/m fiction (in my opinion). The problem is not the gender of the author; it’s the way the subject is being used.

JS: I quite agree the gender of the author doesn’t actually matter. Maybe the best way to sum it up, is; simply writing M/M erotic fiction doesn’t serve or really help gay men – it’s just about the titillation, it’s not representative of anything other than fantasy. LGBTTQI fiction should be about more.

Thank you for taking the time to chat about this today Dom, I really appreciate it. And thank you for being my first guest blogger ;)

Please go show Dominic Murray some WordPress love, and look out for Part Two of our chat which delves more into what it’s like being an openly gay author.

More soon folks!

8 Things Writers Can Do No One Else Can

James Snaith:

Fantastic look at the craft, and what it is to be a writer.

Originally posted on WordDreams...:

writer There are a lot of difficult parts to writing. I mean, besides the whole write-edit-revise-rewrite thing. That cutting a vein and bleeding on the page can get touch-and-go at times. Channeling your muse at times gets someone you’d prefer to avoid. And it’s well documented that trying to make a living as an author is pretty near impossible unless your last name rhymes with ‘Fancy’ or ‘Brawling’.

Despite all that, it’s a profession people flock to, spend thousands training to be, and wouldn’t give up for anything. Widely-accepted studies show 80% of Americans have a book we want to share–despite that industry stats show it takes five years to hone and deliver an acceptable novel. It may–or may not–surprise you to know that pursuing a writing career has less to do with that magical feeling you get turning words into pictures and more to do with what writers get to…

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A not so secret hobby…


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It’s not the biggest secret in the universe, it’s hardly the biggest secret about me. In fact I’m not even sure it counts as a secret. You see, I’m not just a writer; I’m also an artist as well.

Of course, artist covers a multitude of sins, what I mean is that I like to create visual artwork, both 2D (of various media) and I have been known to “dabble” with 3D as well (ok, so there’s a fan film or two out there sporting meshes I created). My art teacher used to leave me to my own devices when I was at school. She was curious as to what I’d come up with whilst in the classroom. Being granted the freedom to explore and have fun with different media… I learnt a lot.

The biggest lesson I learned was that whilst I creating like art – love messing about with it – I lack the focus and commitment to do it as a full time job. When I draw, I do so because the whim takes me. When I paint – it’s for the same reason. When I mess around with 3D models and mesh creation – again, it’s because of whim. The idea of creating something for serious use? I may have done that accidently, but I never started out with the intention.

Art has also been a side hobby for me, in the same way that music was a side hobby for me at school. I love to sing, play as part of a band – I’ve even been known to write music as well (mind you, I had to do that one). Again, however, it’s more something that happens on whim. It lacks the burning desire that writing has on me.

Maybe in truth art and music are simply other ways for creativity to leak out when I find myself, quite literally, lost for words.

Of course, they also serve as perfect distractions from writing as well. They sate the need to create without the requirement that I write. Ironically? Both are as hard work as writing. So as distractions go, they aren’t really the best.

Still, all that aside – a billion or so years ago (ok, maybe not quite that long ago) a good friend of mine introduced me to National Novel Writing Month (NaNo). For an amateur writer who professed an interest in going beyond short stories it was a perfect challenge. As I got more into it, I noticed the trend to create “cover art” for NaNo submissions, as a way of gaining interest in your project. In fact various people advertise offering to create cover art for NaNo participants on their forums. It’s actually as much a part of NaNo as the writing side of things (or so it seems to be these days).

Creating the artwork each year (or rather three times a year as it ended up with the various different versions of NaNo) become something of a guilty pleasure for me. Perhaps too much so maybe. Because I started bugging the hell out of a friend over what they wanted each time (rather than check they were taking part first). Which is part of the reason why I stopped taking part in NaNo in the end.

Taking part in NaNo had become more important that actually getting on and writing.

Which is how I came to fall out with the whole National Novel Writing Month shebang. It’s a fine idea and has its place. BUT it’s not for me anymore. It served its purpose, showed me I could write a novel (more than once as it happened). It stopped being fun when it became about the process and less about the writing.

So no more NaNo for me.

Oh, I still recommend it to people – but I do think once you start to focus on doing it, rather than on just getting on and writing you’ve somehow missed the purpose of it.

Still, it was fun whilst it lasted :)

If it has an enduring legacy for me it’s in the cover artwork I created for myself and a buddy of mine, and in the fact that if I need to create something just for the hell of it, I can – without feeling guilty if it’s NOT used.

And because it’s not nice to tease when you repeatedly mention artwork – here you all go;


That’s everything I created for NaNo for myself and a buddy of mine, covering 2009 up to a mad idea of mine to take part once again this year (2014).

Mostly they’re mixed media (little photo-manipulation with some paint effects), some were completely created in 3DS Max and rendered up (“Just Us,” “Gay To Zed,” “And Shadow will Fall,” “Perhelis”) – some I had a lot of fun creating (“The Lodger”) as finding a willing victim to pose for me, sorry I mean model, wasn’t as easy as I thought. Some made use of stock that was either paid for, or used with the kind permission of the artist, and some are complete creations from my two hands.

And of course, none of these were ever meant to be used professionally.

Of course I realise that those that are fully my own creations could be used professionally. And some of the ones that use stock from other artists who would no doubt be willing to licence the images that way (at a price of course).

They were created as a whim, as a bit of fun, just to enhance the experience of National Novel Writing Month. They were created because they made, make, the writing more fun.

Like I said earlier in this post, art is just another way my inner writer leaks out and helps me define an idea, nothing more. Still, it is fun.

The Assignment Challenge – Update (Part 3)


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Yes, I know…

Been a little less forthcoming with blogs the last couple of weeks than I intended. I could apologise – or I could just be honest and say; “you know, life.”

That being said, I haven’t been out of the loop completely – I do happen to have some plans, which include the promised teaser from my current story as well as a sort of guest blog and an interview (actually, those two ideas may well be merged). But more on that later.

Been busy this week with The Assignment Challenge (and life in general, lol), which if you haven’t been following these posts in my blog you can catch up here, here and here.

I think Dominic and I are at a stage with it where we are beginning to see the big picture with how this whole shebang is going to fit together to be one book when it’s all done. It’s turned into a much bigger project than either of us imagined – or for that matter intended. That’s not to say we aren’t enjoying it. But…

We do need to be careful that we don’t swamp ourselves with the big idea. We need to keep focus where we currently are and keep momentum up on this. So I need to keep my focus on Sam and finish that story. Dom needs to stick with Matt and finish his story before we move on to the other two characters. We also have this week’s challenge to deal with as well (which I shall post later). I need to stop distracting myself (and Dom for that matter) with artwork ideas, or ideas about what to call the whole thing. Those things CAN wait until the end.

But still, this is as far as I got with an artwork idea for the whole thing;


It is of course another form of distraction, and I one I need to be careful of, lol. Creating artwork is a secondary pastime for me (along with creating 3D models… Gaming mods… Tutoring). When I used to do NaNoWriMo, I used to churn the stuff out for myself and friends like there was no tomorrow. In fact, I kind of got caught up on focusing on the artwork a little too much… Which is why I stopped taking part in NaNo. Well, one of the reasons ;)

Humm, that has the potential as another blog idea; artwork. Will have a ponder on that.

More soon folks!

On hitting 100… Thank You


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Thank you one and all – those 100+ (now) people who have taken the time to follow my random ramblings and confessions about the joy of writing.

Maybe it’s lame to point this out – maybe it’s not the done thing. Dunno. Not been blogging long enough to have really picked up the dos and don’ts (aside from the basics, lol).

I never thought… Well, to be honest, I had no idea what I would be doing here. My arm was twisted (only a little) to get me up and blogging. Not sure I’ve really ever had anything relevant to say about anything, the fact that 100+ people think I do is humbling. I shall try not to disappoint (although I can’t promise on that score – I mean, can any of us?).

Thank you all again.

As always, more very soon :D

Writing Process Blog Meme


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boy-148071_640Jacqui Murray has very kindly nominated me for this – many thanks to her. You can find her original post here.

The rules of this meme require I answer four questions about how I write and then nominate three other bloggers to answer the same questions, a little different from what I did last time. I don’t intended to make this an award only blog, so this will be my last go at one of these for a time. But I am grateful all the same ;)

What am I working on at the moment?
Magic Carpet, which is a modern day urban romance story. It’s about two different people, Sam – a thirty-something year old man who doesn’t want to be in a relationship, and almost thirty year old Cal – who doesn’t know if he can be in a relationship. Originally the story was going to only be told from Sam’s point-of-view, but someone suggested writing two stories, one from Sam’s POV and the other from Cal’s POV. It’s an interesting idea, and one I intended to follow through on. The whole project is actually part of a larger challenge I’m taking part of; “The Assignment Challenge.”

How does my work differ from others of its genre?
It’s actually unusual for a man to write male-on-male romance fiction/erotica. For the last decade-or-so it has been a field dominated by female authors. I figure I may have something of an advantage as an openly gay man writing fiction in an area I have experience of.

Why do I write what I do?
I’m not sure. Romance is not what I intended to write. I’m actually a big fan of horror and sci-fi – and whilst I’ve had a little success in the horror genre, my story ideas tend to gravitate (eventually) to include a romance plot. Maybe I write it because I like it? I don’t know. It’s a question I may ask of my therapist next time I see her.

How does my writing process work?
I sit down in front of the keyboard and write. That’s pretty much it. Oh, at some point I might make a few notes about a plot, character notes and maybe (if needed) a little general research. Setting time aside to get on with it, making sure the household knows to leave me alone to get on with it… But to me, the key factor is to actually just write.

My Nominations, who I guess should be looking to post a reply to this on Monday 5th May 2014
Worldly Winds
Ray H

That’s it!  Many thanks to Jacqui for nominating me again, and I hope you all enjoyed ;)

The “Assignment” Challenge – Update (Part 2)


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As promised, here’s the follow up to my last bog. Rather than cover old ground, I’d suggest that you read The “Assignment” Challenge – Update before cracking on with this one ;)

Hopefully now that you have read that and are caught up, I can explain a little further what’s going on with this “monster project,” and why it’s actually four stories, but one book.

If the idea of telling both sides of our individual stories, via first person perspective wasn’t complicated enough – the fifth challenge that was set way back on 16 March – The Evil(ish) One – has ended up complicating things for both Dom and myself. If you haven’t clicked on the link and taken a look at the page about that challenge, then in a nutshell we both had to make use of one character from each other’s story for a short part of the narrative, not in a forced contrived way, but in a natural flows with the story way. It was up to us to decide which character we were each going to borrow from each other for this – either our main protagonists, or there love interests. We both opted (without discussing it with the other) to make use of each other’s love interest characters for our story cross overs.

No problem, because it worked rather well for us both.


And this is where it gets complicated…

Having now made the decision to write the other side of our individual stories using these “love interest” characters, we both find that we are locked in to writing the other side of scenes that each of us has created for that challenge. Our stories are now locked together, tied together. They occupy the same universe, are set at the same time. Hell, three of the characters work for the same company (and that too was an accident).

It only seems logical to move forward in a way that treats both stories Here Comes the Rain Again and Magic Carpet as being two halves of one larger story.

We’ve already discussed a possible ending scene that has all four characters in the same place – and even interacting in various ways. Which is why the current part of this challenge (More Plotting) includes a “Create and combine timelines” part.

So much for just being a kick up the bum to get us both back into writing, we had to go and complicate it.


I’m enjoying the process, it is a lot of fun. I think at some stage we’ll have to sit down and come up with some sort of uber title for the whole thing. But that’s something for the future, it’s not important now.

I think I also promised another taste of Sam’s part of the story from Magic Carpet – you’ll have that a little later in the week (promise!).

Until then, go and give my co-conspirator on this project, Dominic Murray, some love.

More very soon!


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